It should be simple, everyone else seems to be able to manage, but I don't find it simple at all, I find it difficult, and stressful.
I know we didn't get off to a good start this year with having the roof replaced so we didn't prepare the bed or start any seeds or anything like that, but even so there was plenty of time. We have sown seeds and there are leaves but not much else. Dan is more on board and I want to be but it's whatever that switch is in my mind I just can't get excited enough about it to actually do things properly.
I know part of the problem is that I decided to grow veg because I thought we should, rather than because I wanted to. To have all this outside space and to not do anything productive with it seemed wrong. So we/I decided we needed to grow our own. I really want to do it but there seems to be some gap between my desire to do and the reality of doing it. I know it should be easy, but it just isn't for me!
So I have cancelled my magazine subscription and although I feel really sad about it I'm just going to let it go. I just don't think it's worth it, it's certainly not worth how stressed and sad it makes me feel. There you have it. I give up, at least for now.