Monday, 26 October 2015
Just before Christmas last year I had a bit of a breakdown, I think I mentioned it at the time. We were sitting in the car near the Dukes theatre in Lancaster, on our way to see The Puppini Sisters, and I just couldn't go in. So I sat in the car in tears for ages then we went home. Christmas was pretty much over after that. We did put up the ridiculous fabric tree I made, but the rest of the decorations stayed in their boxes and we didn't get round to buying a proper tree.
Dan raised the subject of decorating for this year and we decided to decorate for winter first to snug the house up then add the Christmas section at the appropriate time.
This makes sense to me, and will hopefully remove some of the melancholy I feel around that time - I'm not religious although I do get a lot from going to church, I'm not a fan of family get togethers, although I do enjoy being with them. I just find the whole thing very a very pressured time, too many expectations, I suppose that's what lots of people would call tradition. So today we have dug out the decorations and I have started to decorate, blankets, candles, pine cones, a worrying large amount of hedgehogs, hearts and berries, they have all come out and are cheering up the house.
There are some things we have to just get through, they can't be ignored, so it's all about finding a little space to make it more enjoyable, and what's more enjoyable than being at home?